STOP!

The task:

"December 1 One Word.
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
(Author: Gwen Bell)"

     My task this month is to shove out this year and manifest an attitude about the next year. So this month I'm shitting out everything this years given me, to make room for 2011. So, here we go.

     One word that would encapsulate this whole year... hmm... "Stop". If theres any word that encapsulated this year, its the word "Stop". Things ended this year. Some of them ended before things could have gotten better. It was a rough ending year. People who were somewhat close to me died. Comedian I had watched died. relationships ended. My favorite relationship ended. Movie series that meant a lot to me as a person ended. And television shows I fell in love with ended this year as well.

     Makes sense it would be today that it would be raining hard today. I think I got choked up this year over a lot of these endings. There was a part of me that cried at the end of Toy Story because it was literally about moving on and allowing something to end. Which meant something to the creators of the films as well. So you feel it while watching the film. Then I saw Jackass 3D and I got choked up because the way the movie ends, its looking back on how things were and how they started and it was as if to say, this is something they missed doing, but this is also the last time they'll do it again. So for living with Jackass since I was a kid and now, this felt like a gift to me.

     Ha, in terms of personal STOPS, there were a hell of a lot of endings there. Friends of mine were dumped for people they knew. I got dumped as well.

     These endings did affect me positively and negatively. Honestly speaking, immediately after these events I was absolutely negative. Everyone hits rock bottom in their own way. My rock bottom looked like watching a rock-star hit rock bottom. Lots of substances.

     This year makes sense though. In all the tears and pain so many people went through this year, theres a lot of good in it. I got a bit wiser. Life's funny like that. You can take a lot more when you've hit rock bottom. Makes me understand what I really need out of 2011. 2011 will be another funky revolution of the mind baby.